Basil......Continued

So I guess Basil is doing better. My husband says he is, I'm just a freak and worry constantly about him. We have started weaning him off of the nebulizing solution which is making me a basket cast to say the least. Every sigh is Basil having trouble breathing, every sneeze is him getting worse. I really just need to chill out, but I can't help myself.

I just fell for that dog. Fell for him in a way I have never fallen for any other animal. Having said that, he has caused me more stress and anxiety than any other animal I have ever owned. When it comes to Basil I am always researching, reading, wondering if I have done everything I can. Trying to find out if there is anything I have not done. It is a horrible cycle that I need to get over, but I just can't.

However, I have finally taken the leap and signed him up for an obedience class. Ben says he is the most ill behaved animal in our house, and I have to admit, I have babied him. Basil has been sick since I brought him home, so I have been a little lax in the discipline. Signing him up for that class was a huge leap for me. It means I am looking into the future, instead of anxiously getting through the day to day.

When I am feeling my most philosophical, I know that I found Basil for a reason. I plucked him out of that shelter with no thought or plan for a reason. Maybe because I am supposed to learn about a more natural way to care for my animals. Maybe it's to learn that regardless of what you do, time, money, and love is not always enough.

I do know one thing. All of my animals, both the ones I have now, and the ones I will own in the future have benefited from the things I have learned because of Basil. If for some reason he does not make it, my heart will break in a way it has never been broken and I will never be the same. For now, I have to move forward and try not to worry. After all, Basil and I do have a class starting in a few weeks.